Pretend

I know I can talk to you
Just sometimes I forget that

Afraid of what you'll say
Afraid of what you'll think

I really am not as strong
as I pretend to be

I am afraid of you
I am afraid of me

What if I give you
too much of myself?

What Then

And sometimes I get scared,
of how little I really know you
of how little you really know [about] me

What if we don't last forever
(Not that I am planning for us to)
(But I'm not planning otherwise)

Sometimes I get scared
I really don't have it [all] under control
I am terrified of life

What if I give you too much
What happens if it doesn't work
How would I go on without you

I do get so scared
(Afraid of the world
Afraid of life)

Take a Breath

Angry!
[Shoddy] shirt
[Witchy] sales people
Language, Sarah!

Broken computer.
Failing cellular.
Behind in classes.
Lists at work.

Patience.

Computer being fixed for free.
Waiting on a new phone.
Writing a paper.
Raise in my pay.

Critical Thinking Skills

Critical thinking skills are useless against the irrational and uninformed.

Personal Views

I am so frustrated.

I am trying to find some way to explain it, but I can't because there is no logic behind it.

People who are angry with me because of stating my views. I am not really even challenging theirs. but they are angry because they don't agree with me. or angry because i don't agree with them. or angry because they don't understand what i'm saying. or i'm not really sure what the rational is...

It's all religious things.

Don't start a religious conversation with me if you don't want me to tell you how I feel...

I don't know.

I am just grr...

To the Other Drivers

I like to play my chick rock louder than your music
I like to drive my car faster than yours
I like to ignore you and pretend that you care

Believe

Yes, I do believe
in the powers that be,
higher and above and beyond me.

Goth

I miss my inner goth
the darkness so beautiful,
the days I could stare in your eyes,
the nights of wakefulness
until the breath of dawn.

Uninformed Deception

I am a cynic
and an educated fool.
History must be studied
in order to prove your point,
but more importantly,
in order to prove theirs
wrong.

It's all in the context.
You can study and prove
anything.
However, if you look at it
in the right context
you may learn even more.

And when you pepper facts
with your self-righteous opinions
all you do is lead others away
and down your same road
of uninformed deception.

I know you believe
what it is you say,
but that does not make it
any more the truth.

Do not look at things
from a mind frame
only to prove your point.

Look for what happened,
what really took place.

Look only for the truth.

Part of the Process

It is all a part of the process
I can go anywhere, but fit nowhere
I take your style down off the shelf
strangle it until it fits my body
take it off, try on another.
It is all a part of the process.