Away

My own thoughts are so loud
I can’t hear the silence.

And suddenly I realize,
Your screaming.

You yell so loud,
Yet I can’t hear you.

I see you, I can’t hear you.
I try to ignore you.

Go away, I think,
You can’t hear my thoughts.

I’ve got to get up,
Go away, away,

Away from here,
Away from you.

You’ve gone through it all,
I trusted you with everything.

You’ve crushed all my hopes.
I trusted you.

Now I realize,
I’ve made a mistake.

I

I am from the middle of nowhere, woodpile climbing, and fishing in the horse trough.
I am from starting school, sister’s weddings, and from kittens, and playing piano.
I am from vacations, computers, and always friends.
I am from reports, guys, and the phone ringing off the hook.
I am from boyfriends, make-up, art, and running.
I am from church, camp, writing, teachers, and friends.
I am from high school, stress, cappichano, and house keys.
I am from soccer, break-ups, web cams, and piercings.
I am from deer hunting, depression, and burnt CDs.
I am from poetry, driving, NHS, and family.