Girl, You Disgust Me

You disgust me
You flaunt what you think is success
You flaunt what is ill-gotten
and untrue
You whore yourself to the camera
For some hopeful ounce of fame

What you have is self-confidence
forged in the heart of starvation,
Brazen arrogance
pulled from the lust of broken men,
Self-importance
declared in the name of Grand Self.

Do you not see
what what you take
to get where you are
will also be
taken from you?

Do you not comprehend
what you give to gain
the things you have
will be given
unto another?

Pretty, Shiny Things

Perhaps,
the best way
to deal with my stress
and frustration
is to take
all my clothes off
and
put on
lots of fancy jewelry

Fight
my depression
with pearls
and jewels
and pretty, shiny things

Have
a drink or two
just to chill the nerves

Part of the Process

It is all a part of the process
I can go anywhere, but fit nowhere
I take your style down off the shelf
strangle it until it fits my body
take it off, try on another.
It is all a part of the process.

You're Selling Yourself Short

Stupid girls.
Why can't you become women -
think for yourselves
like you for your
stop selling your body
to those other girls
       for them to judge
telling you what to be
       skinner
       taller
       tanner
       buy bigger boobs
       buy smaller – shorter – tighter clothing
       you can't eat that
       too many calories
       we have to diet
       go to the gym
       don't talk to them
       (they are a nerd)
STOP
selling your bodies for them to judge.
You don't need them.
You don't need to pay for friends.

Poor little girl.
Don't you know any better?
Did no one elver tell you they love you
       - without asking you for sex?
Has no one ever told you you're pretty
       - just the way you are?
Have you not been appreciated
       - for using your own brain?

Pretty girl.
Wake up.
Look around.
There is more to the world
than this.

Older

Someday I will be old.
I will have wrinkles
and gray hair.
My body will start to fail,
my parts won't function correctly.

But it will be alright.

I am content to know
my wrinkles will be from
smile lines, not UV rays,
my gray hair will be
au natural, and not dyed,
my body may be sore, but
is going through something normal,
something that has been part of every
woman's life.

Near You

I crave your body.
I crave your heat.
Just to lie next to you.
Not to be touched by you,
but just to touch you,
be near you.

I want to be in your company.
Anywhere.
Just to be near you.

Tension

I have such a strong sexual tension in my body
I'm not horny
I don't want sex
I want to be touched & held by one I love
by Him.
I yearn for him.
I have not seen him
       touched him
       kissed him in one week
My body wants him
I can't think straight
I can't focus
My body is rigid and tense
One touch.
One touch is all I need and I would melt in his hands.
I would surrender myself to him
              and his advances
until I regained my right mind
Then I would stop him
       push away
              and
       turn over
Just to lay with him
     next to him
Be with him.

Beautiful Nakedness

I'm in love with the naked body.
It is so beautiful
raw flesh
soft fuzz
gracefully flowing curves
I want to touch
I want to caress
I want to be good
I want to be bad
I want to be wrong

I want to enjoy
I want to devour
I want to consume