Goodbye for Now

I've never really had to say goodbye to someone before
It hurts more than I had anticipated
Forgive me for my sentimentality and emotion
There have been farewells, but always voluntary

Please, no regrets for anything that didn't happen
For I know neither of us regret anything that did
Only good memories from here on
Remember our late nights and drunken conversations

Ten years isn't really that long in the span of a life
Be careful
I'll try to keep in touch
Call me when you're home

The End Could Be Neigh

But I love you
I don't want to be through
You keep me safe
You keep me sane

This may be the end, though
To what we have
To what we've built
and carefully crafted

You and I, we're just not the same
(no matter how much I try)
We're not on the same level
Though equal we may be

Good things and more

I want what you offer me
I want where you can take my life
I love you for who you are

Tuesday

Reminding myself that this is a Tuesday night
I still have to get up in the morning
as usual.
Just because it's been a tough day
and I need a rough night
It's still a Tuesday.
I still have to get up in the AM.

Gnat in My Wine

black fly in your chardonnay?
gnat in my wine.
nat in my whine?
ironic or simply inconvenient?
I find it only inconvenient.

In the Mindset of Hemingway...

tonight, thinking about drinking myself stupid and writing till I can't hold a pen any longer

Psycho Bitch

Psycho Bitch.
That's what we'll call you.
Crazy all the way through.

Needy.
Attention Seeker.
Compulsive Liar.
How do I believe
anything you say??

Listening.
Allowing you to confide,
Up until your downfall.

Sneaky.
Double Agent.
Concealer of the Truth.
How am I any better
than you.

Consent

Do you intend to make me feel this way?
Do you know; as you know everything else?
Is this a game? For the both of us?

How did this start?
Why are we here?
Did you consent to me?
Or did I consent to you?

Selfish

If I can do what I please
and get away with it
If I can act however I want
and no one seems to care
Should I really stop,
or press on?

I'm satisfying what I want
Trying not to be too stupid
If I can take from every pile
Have my cake and eat it too
What's to stop me?
What's to say I shouldn't?

Pity Party

I feel jealous
and left out

but whose fault is that...?
how'd I get myself here, anyway?

I am acting so selfishly
But if no one tried to stop me
     do they [really] care?
Is it really as bad as
     we make believe?

You By My Side

I want to do things with you
That I want to do with other people
I mean that generally

I want to get drunk; be stupid;
Stay up all night; laugh; joke;
Converse; go out in the wee morning;

I'm not ready to be mature again
I want to feel college; feel young
I do want to do it all with you by my side