Every time I talk to you

I cry myself to sleep
Every time I talk to you
At the thought of saying goodbye

Shedding the Old

shedding people from my life

friends and lovers

bad influences

You Do Realize...?

You do realize...?
Not with him
does not equate
with you.

You introduced
the F-word.
Forever.
Something so strong.

I appriciate
your honesty.
I do like to know
where you stand.

Equally as
important
is to note
I'm not there.

Coming from
something serious,
I don't want
to jump right back.

You do realize...?
Not with him
does not mean
Yours.

The intimacy
that I have now
is not
Yours.

The emptiness
that I feel
is not
yours to fill.

The hurt
that I created
is mine.
I need to deal.

You do realize...?
Not with him
Does not make me
Yours to claim.

Goodbye for Now

I've never really had to say goodbye to someone before
It hurts more than I had anticipated
Forgive me for my sentimentality and emotion
There have been farewells, but always voluntary

Please, no regrets for anything that didn't happen
For I know neither of us regret anything that did
Only good memories from here on
Remember our late nights and drunken conversations

Ten years isn't really that long in the span of a life
Be careful
I'll try to keep in touch
Call me when you're home

Fate

It had to end
There was no way
You just didn't complete me
Nor I you
We were matched together so well
But our stars just didn't align
Fate had other plans for us
It just had to end
To save us all

Memories Never Die

(the death of a friend)

Looking around as I'm trying to cope,
Coming back to this strange truth, I now know,
For myself, a new future I must scope.
Here without you, my emotions I show.
My agony is allowed some relief
As I see you laying there peacefully
And then my body is flooded with grief,
As I understand what's happened fully,
Look at me, see what a state I'm in.
But it's not your fault, this pain I endure.
You can't help the struggles I have within.
Today is the last time I see you here,
I see you lying there, eyes shut and dry.
Don't worry, memories will never die.

This Time

You were never afraid of Death,
It tried to take you down many times.
Several times, it almost got you,
But you managed one more climb.

You tempted Death to many times,
But this time you didn’t escape.
It pulled you all the way,
And you got more than just a scrape.

I knew it was your fault,
But I couldn’t help blaming myself.
I warned you to be careful,
You said you wouldn’t hurt yourself.

You were too much a daredevil,
And it finally got you back.
I can’t believe you did it.
But you drank the whole six-pack.

You offered me a ride,
And I refused,
Said you shouldn’t go either,
You wouldn’t win, but lose.

Now you lay here, dead,
Still as can be,
Breathing no air,
Staring up at me.

I say goodbye for the last time, tonight.
I will never see you again.
I have just a few last words for you,
You were always my friend, through both think and thin.