Train of Sleep

My train of thought may be skattered,
But my train of sleep has been shattered.
I start to think,
I begin to write,
Where does it end?
Where does it end?


...writing upside down does not work well with a ball point pen...

What it is I See

Sometimes I wish it were possible
to capture a photograph with words.
To capture what it is I see, in words.
I know not vocabulary so elegant.
This I suppose, is where the cliche comes in,
"A picture is worth a thousand words"
If only I could capture
in so few words
the elegant beauty I see
All that is in the world.

To make a blind man see
by way of hearing
the words of page read aloud...
If only I could capture
what it is that I see.

I Choose Now

The point of life is to live,
live and look forward.
Don't look back at what you did
or didn't do,
What you had, or didn't.
Look at what is here in front of you.
Take it and run with it.
Pick an option and continue,
Continue looking forward.
None of it can be changed.
Learn. Move on. Look forward only.
I choose this.
I choose now.
I choose to live and love
my youth and in my youth.

*Letter to a Friend*

There are many things that I don't know about you anymore. From what I do know however, you are an amazingly indepth person who is always full of thought. You are very attractive and a "man in uniform." There are a lot of girls who would fall for you simply for those reasons. Keep your head clear and remember you deserve and need more than a cute little bimbo. Always look for someone equally as intellectual as yourself.
We all have things that hold us back from being who we should be, but don't discount anything in yourself. You would not be who you are if you had not been who and where you have been. Don't let yourself ruin yourself. And remember everything you do affects those who you don't see.
A person can fall in love with anyone, so beware. Make sure you like the person before you fall for them. Don't settle down just because you are ready. Find your best friend and then spend the rest of your life with them.


Dear Friend,
If you see this, please forgive me for posting it.
I only hope it to bring encouragement to others.
~S

A Little Bit of Life

You live. You die.
Enjoy it.
Realize that everything affects someone else.
Therefore treat yourself well and you will do the same to others.

Complexity of You

Every time I hear the Garth Brooks song on your page I smile.
Not because of what the song says, but bc it'll go from rock/metal then to country and it reminds me of one of the things that has attracted me to you.
You have so many sides. So many interests. Diversity. Complexity.
It's Trivium, Garth Brooks, She Wants Revenge... And each different sound fits you perfectly in each different way.
And I smile.

This Guy

I found this guy who means the world to me.
He treats me amazing
and does it without putting me on a pedestal.
He cares for me like no other,
I want to make him the happiest that I can.

He seems so sad sometimes.
I do what I can.
There is so much, as of yet,
that I do not know.
He is like no other.

Offering to You

You don't know me
for as much as you do
as much as I tell you
You don't know me

Someday.
Find me in the right mood
and I'll tell you things
that you do not know.

Things deep inside.
Things I hide.
Things I claim not to know.
Things I am offering to you.

I want you to know
I want to tell you everything
I don't know where to begin
I don't know where to end.

I don't want you to pity me,
humor me if nothing else.
Don't discredit what I have.
Just let me talk.

In a Guys Head

There is so much in a guys head
You've let me in
it terrifies me
I've heard
I haven't believed
now I know
It scares me
makes me trust you more
other guys less
there is so much you all don't show to the world

Past Life

I feel sleep begin to descend
I think only of you with me
I recall high school.
All of it.
The light here reminds me of Mrs. Akers' class.
And the mind frame, my past life.

I am too young to have a "past life"
yes?
no?
I used to be someone else.
I am different now.
I am who I was, fulfilled.
and still fulfilling.
You fulfill me.
Can I say this?
Is this bad?

Tonight, I Write

I have not written in so long.
And here. Now.
I find myself opening up.

In this dark night;
One like no other,
When I had a chance to sleep.

And I find myself writing.
I love it.
I wouldn't give it up for sleep

I chose even,
it over
my other thoughts.

My Mind is Wild and I cannot Sleep

Sleep eludes me
and my mind is wild

I think on things
beyond my time

Those older envy me
and warn me

My mind is wild
and I cannot sleep

I think only of my future
the way things should be

When I can consolidate
Make my lives into one

The way the future should be
Wild like my mind

Spending my time with the one
who cannot sleep