*Tags Added*

I undertook a bit of a personal goal and added tags to all (most?) of my entries. Some are not as complete as I would like, but they are there. Largely for me, so I can find and sort and such, but also for anyone else who might like to browse by topic.
=)
~seh

coincidences & fate

I don't believe in coincidences
and I don't believe in fate.
Any situation that seems to be either
should be looked at with a sense of humor
and made a wise decision about.


...another philosophy to add to my life...

A Little About Me

I am called a hippie
I am called the black plague
I have been mistaken for a freak
...go figure ;)
I listen to a little of all music
I like hunting for Bambi's daddy
I don't like people
...some individuals are okay
I don't like putting chemicals into my body
I drink mostly water
I recycle my water bottles
I don't hug trees
...but prefer to climb them
I like climbing lots of things
I am really a little kid
...but very much an adult
I don't like other people's kids
I will have my own someday
...they will know how to behave
I dislike people who choose to be unintelligent
I am not a fan of people calling "just to talk"
...but always have to have my phone
I am textually active
...but not sexually active
I am addicted to technology
...but enjoy times when it is stripped away from me
I love to go out and run
...even though I don't do it
I like to sit down for hours with a good book
...tho I don't do that often either
I do write a lot and often
...and random things, such as this

a moment of muse

Here I sit.
A misdeclared CS major
in the Engineering building.
Not knowing what I am doing.
So I whittle away at the wires
and their protective plastic casing
with my pocket knife,
while listening to Beethoven's
most elegant and brooding
moonlight sonata.

It ends.
I play it again.
Cut away a little more yellow
a little more plastic
a little more wire
a little more life.
Slowly drifting away
as with the moonlight sonata.

Life, it ebbs, it flows,
comes and goes.
So much is spent, wasted away
questioning the past.
Not listening to the music that is the present,
the beauty that is the now.

The Greener Side

I know better than
to give up what I have
for something that might be

I don't know
how long I can convince myself
this is true

I don't know if what I have
is really better
than what could be

Is the grass really
the same color
on the other side?

Only there is no grass
But only people
involved in this fence.

None the less, I sit
squarely
in the middle

Some things change
...honey...
But some things never do.

Keep Smiling

It's my 20th birthday.
I'm depressed.
I feel like a whore.
I might as well keep the charade going
and dress in pretty colors...

Selfish in my Silence

It hurts me so badly inside
To think what I've done
What I've done to both of us
I've cost you so much
Led you so far
Lied in my silence
Lied in my actions
Lied in my expressions
I am so selfish
I should have just told you to leave

What Happened?

What have I done?
Why am I so stupid?
Have I ruined another one?
My mind.
It can't take it.
No. Please don't touch me.
You mean so much to me.
You were (?) my best friend.
What happened to him?
I don't see him often these days.