Drunk and Depressed

drunk and depressed
always leads to the same thing
me calling on you
to talk to me
whining to you
about how we're
so wrong, so right
crying out to anyone
that i don't understand
these things
that I've got myself into

Your Choices are Yours

The moar I've had to drink,
The less sorry I feel for you

You made the choices
To be who you are

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:)

A little bit of alcohol
Some good electronic music
Prompts a headful of thoughts
I can entertain myself for hours

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I ran out of wine
And I don't like to sleep
Pinterest has consumed my life
And I need some IRL friends

The cat wont let me move the mouse
And I'm getting cold

Personal Demons

Personal demons.
That is all.
No need for concern.
I just need something.
Numb my brain.
Fog my mind.
Keep me from sleeping.
(Until I have no other choice.)

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Spiteful

These days are killing my soul
Busy and not home yet

Technology has taken over
There's not enough art in my life

I love you, but
My science experiment is telling

I'm going to leave your leftovers
on the table till they mold

Clothes are washing
I am finally fed

Time to cleanse and intoxicate
And soon to write myself to sleep

Wedding Planning

Planning a wedding might make me an alcoholic
If it doesn't, I'm going to blame it on the wedding, anyway.

I talk to the dresses
and wink at my bourbon

Southern Girl

Boots to my knees
Skirts to my thighs

A gun tucked in my left boot
A flask deep in the right

...

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Pretty, Shiny Things

Perhaps,
the best way
to deal with my stress
and frustration
is to take
all my clothes off
and
put on
lots of fancy jewelry

Fight
my depression
with pearls
and jewels
and pretty, shiny things

Have
a drink or two
just to chill the nerves

Tuesday

Reminding myself that this is a Tuesday night
I still have to get up in the morning
as usual.
Just because it's been a tough day
and I need a rough night
It's still a Tuesday.
I still have to get up in the AM.

Gnat in My Wine

black fly in your chardonnay?
gnat in my wine.
nat in my whine?
ironic or simply inconvenient?
I find it only inconvenient.

In the Mindset of Hemingway...

tonight, thinking about drinking myself stupid and writing till I can't hold a pen any longer

You By My Side

I want to do things with you
That I want to do with other people
I mean that generally

I want to get drunk; be stupid;
Stay up all night; laugh; joke;
Converse; go out in the wee morning;

I'm not ready to be mature again
I want to feel college; feel young
I do want to do it all with you by my side

dirty things

we all have our share of dirty things shoved back in dark corners
pouring myself full of liquid drug, loud music, and metal
because i cannot adequately feel anything

My Rave Drugs

Gin and Adrenalin.

Bourbon

Red wine is classy
light beer is trashy

I'm just a Kentucky girl
so I drink my Bourbon straight.
;)

Me - End of a Decade

I'm unlike any other and original just like the rest. I fill my time with IT work, online classes, and SGA IT stuff. I love music, computers, and words. Hobbies include: riding my bike, mixing drinks, loving on my cat, various sorts of artsy things, fixing, and organizing stuff. I wish I had more time to read, but I always find time for xkcd. I like digging junk out of dumpsters and giving mine away (on freecycle). I cut my own hair. I like mushroom hats, classy people, and dry humor. Most of my clothing is dark, "earthy" colors, beyond that, I believe any day is a good day to wear black.

Interesting Individual

My head is going crazy with thoughts about you
I hope you're not picking up on my mixed signals
Yours are clear enough - or so I think

I must be careful, can't let you become another one,
Another causality of my independence
You intrigue me, though, and pique my mind.

You fascinate me thoroughly and make me wonder...
I would like to sit and talk with you,
Some evening, perhaps all night

This must stay simple and innocent
The chatting, the charm (of newness)
Perhaps we should have a drink some time


...Should I mention?
You appeared in my dream last night.
I don't remember most of it, but
You did have a full back tattoo.

Stabilize

Stabilize.
Stabilize.
Not Stable.
Wobble furiously left and right.
Stabilize.
Stabilize.
Feel it now.

Love Him

I love him.
I had the urge to call and tell him.
He knows.
That's all I had to say.
I refrained.
I drank some more wine.
Thought some more.
Changed my mind.
Called him, told him, that was all.
He was happy.
I cried.