Look at Me

Look at me.
People look at me
and see
"who I am"
a good girl
an innocent girl
perfect
beautiful
got it all going for her

"She" is such a hypocrite
that couldn't be farther from the truth.
I hate me
I hate what I've become
I hate you
I hate this world
I am so full of a stinking hate
I always have been.
I've hidden it so well,
for so many years.

No one knows
Not even me
I don't allow it
I struggle with myself
because I hide myself from myself
I am afraid of what I'll find
I know what I would find
So I block it all away
from myself

I do bad things
I am a bad person
I wish bad things
I see/hear/taste bad things
I want bad people
I am bad

I am a sinner
I am human
I am an egotist

I love me
I love you
I love him

I hate this world.

Beautiful Nakedness

I'm in love with the naked body.
It is so beautiful
raw flesh
soft fuzz
gracefully flowing curves
I want to touch
I want to caress
I want to be good
I want to be bad
I want to be wrong

I want to enjoy
I want to devour
I want to consume

I Am What I Am

I am a loner.
I am a computer geek.
I am a freak...
Call me what you wish,
but I am what I am.

Window to the Soul

Oh, Blue Eyes
You're so evil
You look so demeaning
You put on a good front
but I see the insanity in your eyes
...What do you see in mine?

Utterly A

There's no point in explaining
to someone who can not comprehend
the concept of being alone.

"But how can you be alone?
We'll all be there!"

"Just don't worry about it,
I decided not to go."

Negative?

I am such a negative person.
I should try to be more positive.
I am...
I have...
I can...
I am such a selfish person.
...There is no other option.