depressed?

"Try Sarah. Just try to be happy."

It's like trying to have red hair.
No matter how long I stare in the mirror
and try to make it red
it's still not.

They are Angry

I know how it feels now
So utterly alone
(With) No one to call
I Understand

I don't trust them
They don't need to hear
They won't listen
They are angry with me
Who does this leave me to talk to


I need to take a shower & calm down.

How Can I Not

I have nothing to write
I'm confused
but I know how I feel
"Drifting between How can I
and how can I not?"

New Shopping Philosophy

I will no longer shun mainstream fashion solely on the basis of it being such.
If I do not like the item, I (obviously) will not buy it.
However, if I do like it, I will buy it, and will proceed to laugh at all the other self-declared "non-conformists" as they gawk at me in my newly purchased gauchos.

~seh

Tension

I have such a strong sexual tension in my body
I'm not horny
I don't want sex
I want to be touched & held by one I love
by Him.
I yearn for him.
I have not seen him
       touched him
       kissed him in one week
My body wants him
I can't think straight
I can't focus
My body is rigid and tense
One touch.
One touch is all I need and I would melt in his hands.
I would surrender myself to him
              and his advances
until I regained my right mind
Then I would stop him
       push away
              and
       turn over
Just to lay with him
     next to him
Be with him.

I Think Too Fast

I may have slipped
I may have fallen
Maybe I shouldn't have said
But (I think) I love you.