Better than Dreaming

If you come to see me
and find me asleep
will you wake me,
Please.
I would rather spend my time with you
than sleeping.

listening, not listening

listening, not listening
it's whatever
it's your loss, what you decide to do
I'm still getting out what I need to.
there is one thing worse than not listening,
(and that's) indifference.

depressed sometimes

I feel like a such a crazy girl sometimes.
I try not to get depressed, sometimes.
I don't know what to do / not to
do, say / not to say, though.

I get depressed
I think, I write, I cry;
I smile, I move on.

My Preferred Medium

It's just a horrible vicious cycle
I keep thinking and wanting to speak and not speaking.
I choose to write b/c I cannot be interrupted
and I can word my thoughts and see them and
still make a final decision before I share them
With you, with the world...
that's why I consider myself a poet, writer
Writing, my preferred medium
So I just keep writing...

You & I

Office Space and Little Miss Sunshine
Ben Kweller and coffee shops
The shortest bridge in Bowling Green
- (that should belong only us)
Kisses in the rain & on the picnic table
...every where we can.
Pennies on the train track
Plans: skipping town & visiting Paris
September 5th; I know what that is!
September 14th ...I remember that one too.
Longest time apart: four days
...next time 2 weeks (I couldn't take it!)
Albino Squirrels and Lions that are King
Swinging
(Zenon, Shawna, and other strange People)
Holding hands.
Being cute and gross.

Awkward

I sit.
You
walk past
me.
You don't
look
at me.

I sit
awkwardly.
You walk
past
quickly. I
look down
You
look up
We avoid.

Solitaire

Solitaire.
- A fun game played by many.
Solitaire.
- A game played when no one is around.
Solitaire.
- A silent game to play when silently declaring you wish to be left alone.

Silence

Silence.
A beautiful, golden thing.
Silence.
An awkward ...pause.
Silence.
A tension straining to make a room implode.

Awkward Silence

What's it mean to 'feel' the tension in a room?
How can it be sensed?
You know it's there
is it a personal thing?
Does everyone have to feel equally awkward?
Or is it something that can actually be sensed by all?

I am Capable

I am female
I am young
I am beautiful
therefore I know nothing (relevant)
especially not anything technical

I am angered when old men
know something only by their age
and gender

It irritates me
makes me want to strangle someone

It is just a pet peeve of mine
A pet peeve of a beautiful
young
woman