A New Me

I don't know who I am anymore
I peg other people
know how they will respond
I peg myself
try to tell others how I will respond,
how i think I will respond,
how I think I should respond,
How I've responded before.

I'm really not sure who i am though
I need to realign myself with my identity
Or perhaps find my identity
but where to look if
I'm not who I was
and don't know who to be


I must be careful
not to base off anyone else
make my own self:
Who I am,
What I think,
only.

Looks Can Be Deceiving

I feel like a 20 year old
I feel like a college student
I feel like I look like who I should be
Do I look like who I am?

Recovery Phase

I need to keep check on my feelings
Find out what's going on
Why I'm feeling this way

I think I am falling hard and fast

Thank you for being stronger than me
While I discover who I am and
Recover from who I used to be

Walking Out

People walk into our lives
and sometimes turn around
and walk right out again
Sometimes our friends change
and we just have to let them go

Selfish

I am so tired
I am sorry
I wanted this to be a fun night
for us both to enjoy

I feel as though I have ripped that away
with my inconsiderateness
not thinking about what I had promised you
I lived as though I was the only one to matter

Date Tonight

I still have 40 minutes at work
I am so sleepy
I have a date tonight
I will have less than 2 hrs to get ready
I need a shower
I am uncomfortable with his
apparent
level of attraction towards me
I don't mean to lead him on
I just thought it would be a fun night
and it shall be
if I can not fall asleep
and there are no plane troubles

I am Falling

What is it you do to me?
I am not like this.
I don't fall so quickly
especially upon new acquaintances
...

These Things

Things are so much more complicated than I let on
yet things are quite a bit less so than I make myself believe

These things I feel,
I don't know from wince they come.

I don't know on what basis
I can claim them.

I really don't know you
but there is so much between us.

You are in my head
and I in yours.

Both in thoughts, dreams,
and like mindedness.

You are a curiosity to me
and quite curious yourself.

...
You come sit beside me, I'm okay with that,
but now I am distracted...

Can I Keep You

you ask if you can keep me.
i tell you i have to go home later.
you know i know
that's not what you mean.

you ask if you can keep me.
i tell you
that is my favorite line in Casper.
you are not amused.

you ask if you can keep me.
what will i say this time?
i should like to say yes,
for as long as you can.

"Can I keep you?" you ask,
not tonight, my dear,
you cannot keep me just yet,
but you may detain me whenever you like.

Quiet

Stupid people above me.
Stomping.
Goodness. It's midnight.
Go to bed!
Me? I'm not in bed?
No. Of course not.
...but at least I'm quiet.