Ryan Joseph

"I'm a father..."
Words I wasn't prepared to hear.
Words I wasn't prepared
to respond to.

I usually associate thoughts of you
with 3 Doors Down,
but I need Limp Bizkit, instead.
It really is significant.

Still not sure what to say.
Congrats? Best of luck?
Thanks for thinking of me?
...After all this time.


(I always have thought that you'd be a good dad. Do this and do it well.)

Short

Short bouts of sharp words say more than sentences ever could.

some things don't go away with high school

None of our stories are really all that different.
High school drama, betrayal, and back stabbery.
We're all a little warped from it,
but it makes us who we are.

Some, even with lots of trauma
still come out okay.
It's those who look down on themselves
that we should worry about.

Fools

Normal is the majority
And I find, in my experience,
that the majority is usually
wrong.
If I want to be right,
I've got to take my own,
Hold my own,
Be my own
Person.
Not one of those imitating, hating,
Fools.

Me - End of a Decade

I'm unlike any other and original just like the rest. I fill my time with IT work, online classes, and SGA IT stuff. I love music, computers, and words. Hobbies include: riding my bike, mixing drinks, loving on my cat, various sorts of artsy things, fixing, and organizing stuff. I wish I had more time to read, but I always find time for xkcd. I like digging junk out of dumpsters and giving mine away (on freecycle). I cut my own hair. I like mushroom hats, classy people, and dry humor. Most of my clothing is dark, "earthy" colors, beyond that, I believe any day is a good day to wear black.

Do Too Much

I try to do too much.
I get so stressed out.
It's not a matter of not saying no.
It's that I keep asking for more.

So many things that I want to do.
Just not enough time to plan them all.
Not enough tome to sleep.
Not enough time in one week.



Sleep.

Cat in window sill

Cat in the window sill.
Lovely dear.
Such an intelligent being.
Still so needy...
Loves me because I feed her.
And because she doesn't have thumbs of her own.

Interesting Individual

My head is going crazy with thoughts about you
I hope you're not picking up on my mixed signals
Yours are clear enough - or so I think

I must be careful, can't let you become another one,
Another causality of my independence
You intrigue me, though, and pique my mind.

You fascinate me thoroughly and make me wonder...
I would like to sit and talk with you,
Some evening, perhaps all night

This must stay simple and innocent
The chatting, the charm (of newness)
Perhaps we should have a drink some time


...Should I mention?
You appeared in my dream last night.
I don't remember most of it, but
You did have a full back tattoo.

Alanis Morissette

alanis morissette makes me feel better about life
gives me hope that comes and goes
i see we've all made the same mistakes
looked in the wrong places for the right things
lost people who were suppose to care

so dangerous, so lovely

so dangerous
so lovely
i want to touch you, hold you.
so dangerous
so lovely
i want to be the one next to you
i want to take your hand and know it'll be okay
so dangerous
so lovely
the things that are not allowed
should not be alone
you're so dangerous
because we're so lovely